finally.. i have returned back to the old me..

Of all these times, i have been struggling to get that old me back in my body frame..

I used to be competitive, active, never give up and always have a goal in life.

And now I have been lazy, give up on trivial numbers of push ups and other work outs and I got no visions in
my head.

But i have finally been able to trigger the old me..

How should I describe the old me?
-Motivated brabesh, love to make mistakes to in order to perfect my skills, i always have objectives in my head and I will do anything to achieve that.

Frankly speaking..

I have been in love with this girl and i have longed admired her for like fucking LONG lol and I always have this thought that I will one day propose her. But when I finished working in sugarbun I then realized that she actually  has a boyfriend.

Kinda shocked with the result, so i started to get close to her and made her laugh, cry and caress her in her diffcult run. I did that with great success.. but then

I realized that she has a boyfriend and I thought this boyfriend is just a simple boyfriend cos she used to main2 her boyfriend before.

So..

I looked up at her profile and there she is with her boyfriend. Every wallpage i read in her timeline, every pieces of photos in her albums that i flipped through in an online manner lol i started to see this "loving vibe" that surround the lovebirds. I can tell whether that person is main2 or not.. just by looking at how close they are. im gifted lol so..

I started to realize that she finally found her perfect one. Seriously her boyfriend ( i am no gay yo but im saying in a manly perspective cos i have to see perfection in other people so that i can the perfection in myself) is amazingly good looking and I can see that caring face and honest looks. And they are by the far the perfect puzzle pieces that match PERFECTLY.


Kinda jealous but suddently..

Judging from the sacrifice made by her boyfriend..

I started to measure my self.


Im a light year away from his boyfriend .


I dont think i can match and on par with his sacrifice.


I only know how to make people laugh.

But only in a short run...



I am afraid im not able to be the real me.. full of spring of youth..


cos of this upcoming ocs..


and alhamdulillah. Im able to become me, the independent me..



I suddently feel like something forced me out from this sticky jelly thing that is called obsession.

Now i have transformed into a bird lol


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this will be the last post i will ever make for this blog. cos im gonna be busy from now on.